Everyday Friends Vs. Blog (virtual) Friends

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how much I love the people I’ve met here. Seriously, I mean it- love! We are all probably feeling the same way, no? So, I thought I’d open up my Word program and get the WORD out, yo! *I love the picture above- I might have it framed*- it can hang above the ghetto•opoly game I bought before they pulled it off the shelves at stores…. People didn’t appreciate the “crack-pipe” game piece I did however

So, why do I feel so free here? Why am I so connected to y’all? I feel closer to some of you than I do to some of my everyday friends and even some FAMILY MEMBERS. Here, at my place ~ JavaQueen, it’s filled with love and acceptance. I often find myself thinking as I’m reading over at your places or in my comment area, “Oh, I wish we lived closer” so we could hang out. Or, “Oh, I wish we could all get together for coffee- EVERYDAY!” I read so-and-so went for a walk today-she tells about what she saw and may even share a beautiful photograph- I wish I could have gone with her, I needed to do that too and I would have gone for sure, it would have been so fun!!!

I want to go for a walk with Annie and bounce thoughts off of one another. Although, she’s extremely intelligent, she’d be doing most of the bouncing but I’d happily walk alongside learning as I go. I want to do art projects with Trisha * I want to see her paintings in person! I want to see her paint! and wander around her land together taking a hike soaking up the beautiful atmosphere! Holy hell- I’d love to hang with Red; we’d go for LONG walks, I could tell her all my secrets! We can inspire one another to get up and GO! If she were my neighbor, I’d have it made!

I want to see Birdpress in action and watch her work, we seem to have so much in common! I want to craft with Nic, meet J and play with her NEW MINI DOXIES. I want to meet up with her everyday at the local park and watch our pups become best friends! When Odette and KJ reunite; we can meet up – then she and I can go create works of art! I can see how she works her magic, and shit- I can just be a better person by standing in her presence! I’ve always done my own hobbies, but their work is so impressive it makes me feel like I can do it too!

I want to go drinking with Romi, Talea, and Reg! But I’ll know in advance to wear depends because I will surely pee myself! I want to hang with Teeni and pick her brain! She’s good people! I’d love to grill Jen and find out more about her inspirations for her books- is she hiding some hot hunk? *If so, Jen, I wanna meet him too- Ha! Ha! I’d tell Scott that just by writing the way he does he’s so ahead of the game; he’s gonna figure it all out!

I’d like to have a beer and smoke a cigar with ~m and see the real deal- in my mind, he’s hilarious, witty, and someone I could learn from! I get the feeling he’s just the guy I envision while reading his brilliance! Don’t even get me started on Maxine; I think I’d be changed forever! I often wished to be near Maxine- no one writes like that; I swear… you are one of my favorites.

Do you? Sometimes, I even get bummed because I realize we might never get to meet! The other day I was cruising and something funny popped into my head and I wanted to call RED! and realized, “I don’t have her number!” Yes, my pal Red! She and I would be wicked close if we lived anywhere close to one another… and it’d be dangerous- my sides would hurt from all the laughter!

I just imagine, all of us hang’n around a big circular table literally laughing our asses off. We all seem to have the same raw (sometimes crude) sense of humor – - – Can you tell I think you are all so special?

What are some of the things stopping me from spending time with my real friends? Anxiety and depression. I’m BLOODY tired as well. For the last several years I’ve slowly (and happily) disconnected from people right around me. I’m happy for the most part folks, it’s just easier for me to cope somehow. Yes, I still call my best friend (since kindergarten) and check in every other week but I use to talk to her every single morning at 9a.m. – EVERYDAY without fail.

Now, the constants in my life are minimal (only referring number wise). Husband, kids, family, some friends that I can actually tolerate, and co-workers (have no choice, I have to work). Other than that, you are it!

Here’s a question. If I could snap my fingers and we could all meet up next Friday at the same place, same time, in person- all of us; you know who you are! Would I show up?

Or, is it easier for me to be myself from the safety of my workstation or at home? I don’t have to worry that my house looks like a shit hole, that my hair is having more fun than I am, that I have no makeup on, or that I’m hang’n low due to lack of a wearing bra….. I don’t have to worry about anything but being myself. I don’t have to worry that you’ll want to go do something expensive because I’m flat broke and scraping by… Or, lets take it to the next step. Perfect example: It’s 3:30a.m. and the co-workers boyfriend fiance’ just called in a pissy winy voice, I gave her the call where he proceeded to pick a fight and she played into it and actually coddled him. I want to bitch slap her right now, call him a big pussy and hang up on him because it’s aggravating me. So, with you guys- I don’t see any of that nonsense. Just tell me when we hang I wont have to listen to that kind of nonsense, k? Cuz, I will bitch slap! Ha! No, seriously though, do you catch where I’m going with this? Not to mention I can be an annoying hump! Not an annoying humper- just a wretched little bitch who also wines from time to time…. Would you still want to meet me?

So, would I show up? YES FRIENDS, I WOULD SHOW UP IN A HEARTBEAT BECAUSE you’ve grown on me like moss on a river rock and, I think you are stuck with me as well! Love you all to bits and pieces! The thing with me is, I want more than 1 Friday night (although it’d be a great start). I want to win the lotto and buy each of you a house in our very own exclusive neighborhood! And, it would include all mentioned plus Joan Harvest and her crew, Peter Parkour and his lovely wife would never drive a rig again; it’d just be parked out as a reminder that he’s now living on Easy Street. Stac & Michelle, both so smart and funny- Moe and her crew as well 2LD, Calamity, MsFlipphead, Kim, and even the The Talking Monkey; although I’d have to hunt your ass down man, but I’d do it! If I forgot to mention anyone, don’t fret, I’m a bit of an airhead and I love you too! And to the one (singular) that is both my real and blog bud; Pleather- you’d have to live in our neighborhood too! Of course it’d be a gated community – no morons allowed

So, tell me, would you show up next Friday night? If so, get ready to par-tay- it’s gonna be an ALL NIGHTER! We could make it a weekend deal and go to Maxine’s House of Ill Repute for services Sund’y and pray for all the bad shit we did and said too, if that makes you feel better? SMOOCHES to ALL!